It's just... maybe 2013 is not my year of writing in this blog.
It's been a hard time keeping up with the thoughts of writing since I spent much time writing my assignment story.
Do I miss blogging? Hell yeah.
I miss every single feeling I used to put up in these posts. I miss how frequent I used to put my feelings here.
I don't even post anything about the new year. Not even about my birthday (which was kinda pathetic, by the way)
I love this blog, but I just don't feel like blogging lately.
I miss my old self; the one I found by being among my old friends. I miss how exciting they made my life.
I am a person that --when I love something too much, I'll destroy it. I'll effin' destroy the things I love.
I hate the fact that I'm destroying this blog, too.
I hate myself for being hateful.
(Okay, it's becoming out of topic) but up until now, I don't really feel like this is the place I should be.
I have no future figured out, but sometimes I hope I could pack my things and fly away --to the place where my heart feels the warmest.
The me on my high-school years was the best and the worst of me. But then I want to get back to that me.
I kinda hate this current me.
I would probably hate people according to what they say. I'm becoming a judgmental person lately. Accepting difference wasn't a hard thing to do, but living in a difference situation has been killing me.
This was not the future I hope for. This wasn't the dream I want to reach.
This year will be my stepping stone. Now go watch me turn this effin' year into a memorable one.
P.S. Chinese New Year was nice, I got so much angpaos I couldn't imagine I'd have. But then I miss celebrating it in my hometown.
P.S.S. Beijing report is coming soon --or later.
