You may figured a whole new side of me from this letter. Just telling.
Dad.
Dad. One word that fits our father-daughter relationship is maybe acceptance. I am proud to be your daughter, really. I remember when I was little, you call me "son" every time. You said "Good morning, son" or "Hello, my son". I thought it was because you don't understand English properly, so you misinterpret the meaning between "son" and "daughter".
But now I think differently. What if you want me to be your son? Not your daughter?
To be strong, to take care of the family, to accompany you watching movies every weekend, to understand AC as you do? Well, I tried, Dad.
I'm sorry if I failed you. I'm sorry I'm fragile and that I went hiding and cried alone every time we had a problem.
I don't care what are you or what mistake you might have done. We are human and we can't be perfect.
I don't care with your anger issue. You are my Dad, and one thing I know for sure is, I will never ever imagine a better father than you. I am not me if my Dad isn't you, Dad. You made me perfectly what I am now.
I'm strong in front of you and everyone else. I cried while watching movie, because it's my only chance to cry.
It's okay. We accept each other, and I love you deeply more than songs can say.
Mom.
Mom. The most beautiful word human ever invent. The reason I don't cry in front of you, and why I always said it's gonna be okay; because I need to be strong. I need to, or else I'd make someone in this world sad, and I won't let that happen.
If I ever make you sad, angry, or disappointed, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry if I ever rebelled. If I ever said something that hurt you. I'm just so sorry, Mom.
I knew I'm the star of your life, the only child and the only daughter.
I'm just so sorry if I couldn't be what you want me to be.
I promise you, I will be a better daughter to make you proud.
I knew sometimes people are jealous to see how close we are --with Dad too.
Mom, sometimes we have to tolerate and accept people for what they are, to make everything flawless. Sometimes we just have to try accepting them for who they are.
I love you Mom. I tell you everyday, I know.
I love you mommy and daddy. I miss you. Tu me manques.
Love, yoan.
