Day 3 — Your Parents

You may figured a whole new side of me from this letter. Just telling.

Dad.

Dad. One word that fits our father-daughter relationship is maybe acceptance. I am proud to be your daughter, really. I remember when I was little, you call me "son" every time. You said "Good morning, son" or "Hello, my son". I thought it was because you don't understand English properly, so you misinterpret the meaning between "son" and "daughter".

But now I think differently. What if you want me to be your son? Not your daughter?

To be strong, to take care of the family, to accompany you watching movies every weekend, to understand AC as you do? Well, I tried, Dad.

I'm sorry if I failed you. I'm sorry I'm fragile and that I went hiding and cried alone every time we had a problem.

I don't care what are you or what mistake you might have done. We are human and we can't be perfect.

I don't care with your anger issue. You are my Dad, and one thing I know for sure is, I will never ever imagine a better father than you. I am not me if my Dad isn't you, Dad. You made me perfectly what I am now.

I'm strong in front of you and everyone else. I cried while watching movie, because it's my only chance to cry.

It's okay. We accept each other, and I love you deeply more than songs can say.

Mom.

Mom. The most beautiful word human ever invent. The reason I don't cry in front of you, and why I always said it's gonna be okay; because I need to be strong. I need to, or else I'd make someone in this world sad, and I won't let that happen.

If I ever make you sad, angry, or disappointed, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry if I ever rebelled. If I ever said something that hurt you. I'm just so sorry, Mom.

I knew I'm the star of your life, the only child and the only daughter.

I'm just so sorry if I couldn't be what you want me to be.

I promise you, I will be a better daughter to make you proud.

I knew sometimes people are jealous to see how close we are --with Dad too.

Mom, sometimes we have to tolerate and accept people for what they are, to make everything flawless. Sometimes we just have to try accepting them for who they are.

I love you Mom. I tell you everyday, I know.

I love you mommy and daddy. I miss you. Tu me manques.

Love, yoan.

74% stupid.

Directions:

Mark the stupid things you've done, then add up the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 50 questions, which means that the number you get as your score (x2) is your percentage.

[x] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out

[ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails

[x] Broken a chair by leaning back in it

[x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking

[x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking

[ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head

[x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush

[x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand

[x] Tried to push open a door that said pull

[x] Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 8

[x] Applied something else on your hair, thinking it was shampoo.

[x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else

[x] Have tripped and fallen down the stairs

[ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave

[x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair

[x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble

[ ] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it

[x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard

[x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name

[ ] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 15

[ ] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on

[x] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle

[x] Have run into a closed door.

[x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it

[ ] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke

[x] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer

[ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan

[x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk

[ ] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

Running total: 20

[x] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it

[x] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside

[x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else

[ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property

[x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot

[x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on

[x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in

[x] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard

[x] Walked into a pole

[ ] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 28

[x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house

[x] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on

[x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small

[x] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it

[x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do

[x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it!

[x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up

[x] Have poked yourself in the eye

[x] Listened on your earphones, thinking it was plugged in, when it actually wasn't.

[ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 37

Total : 37/50

Stupidity Percentage: 74%

100 truths about me

1. Last beverage: iced thai tea
2. Last phone call: my father
3. Last text message: Ingrid
4. Last song you listened to: What's My Name - Rihanna
5. Last time you cried: three days ago, I fell asleep crying

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: never
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never been kissed
9. Lost someone special: never
10. Been depressed: sometimes
11. Been drunk and threw up: never been drunk

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12: white
13:purple
14: silver

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: yes, a couple of time :(
17. Laughed until you cried: yeah, of course! How could you not cried till' you tried when you have such an amazing people around you! :')
18. Met someone who changed you: I don't change, I'm metamorphosing
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: nope, and I think I won't give a damn
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: never been kissed

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them
23. How many kids do you want: four, actually. Two boys with name Tyler and Xavier, and two girls with name Luna and Stella. Such a big family I wanna have :p
24. Do you have any pets: three big dogs
25. Do you want to change your name: no, i don't, I love my name though people never got it right
26. What did you do for your last birthday: small party and a movie with my family and friends
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.30 AM, today's holiday, come on.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: our world to be a better, non-racist world.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: we're on the same room :p
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing. I'm good with myself.
32. What are you listening to right now: Enchanted - Taylor Swift WITH the sound of soccerball playing on TV :p

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no. Such a random question!
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now:  one hypocrite, arrogant and annoying I can't name here
35. Most visited web page: manga sources, tumblr,
36. Whats your real name:Gregoria Maria Johanna Tjokrosasmito
37. Nicknames: yoan, yowan, wan, tje (means little/young in Dutch, nicknamed by my Grandpa), mak co (by our darling Kwetiau), yoyo (by my Ipoo and surprisingly, Ingrid), G.M., tjokro.
38. Relationship Status: single, waiting for the right one but still having fun without a boyfriend ;)
39. Zodiac sign: capricorn
40. Male or female: female
41. Primary School: sang timur
42. Secondary School: sang timur
43. High school/college: st. louis
44. Write w/e you want here: Live, laugh, love, learn, and don't lie, because you only have one life.
46. Height: 1.63 metre
47. Do you have a crush on someone: yes
48. What do you like about yourself: i love everything about myself
49. Piercings: yes, just one per ear :p
50. Tattoos: nope, but I hope I can get some oneday ;)
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: about two maybe, because I remember the nurse FORGET to put alcohol to one of my ear and it hurts. Stupid nurse :(
54. First best friend: a son of my mother's best friend ;p
55. First sport you joined: badminton, because my ex-crush was an expert on badminton :p
56. First vacation: Brisbane, Australia; two full weeks on one town because my big sis finished her high-school there ;)
58. First pair of trainers: forgot

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: dragon fruit
60. Drinking: sparkling water, haha :D
61. I'm about to: go to the bathroom :p
62. Listening to: I Never Told You - Colbie Calliat
63. Waiting for: real holiday, presents, and my serene tranquility (jiah! haha)

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids: yes
65. Get married: yes, I'm not searching for my prince, I'm waiting for the one who thinks I'm his princess ;)
66. Career: journalist, cafe-owner, writer, pastry chef, blogger :)

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: both are good, but if I have to choose; eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs. There is FREE HUGS but there isn't FREE KISSES. Kisses are for someone more special, not for free ;)
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or Spontaneous: (hopeless) romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: in relationship, come on I'm a hopeless romantic!

HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. glasses/contacts: none, I still have a perfect eyesight, haha
79. Sex on first date: never. I wear virginity ring, come on.
80. Broke someone's heart: maybe?
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died:yes, even when I don't really know them. I'm carried away by people's feeling :(
85. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: yes, and I believe in God O:)
88. Love at first sight: yes :)
89. Heaven: yeah
90. Santa Claus: I used to. Until I know it's my Dad, haha :p
91. Kiss on the first date: yes i believe in it
92. Angels: yes, I believe in my guardian angel, too

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today: everyday, I love to sing for myself ;)
96. Ever cheated on somebody: never
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go:when everything isn't this complicated. But I'm okay with my present self, thankyou :)
98. The moment you would choose to re-live: never
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: no, falling in love is sweet
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: no ;)